I Am Afraid

I sit here in my room at night; scared, alone, and full of self doubt. I know what I want, I know what I can do, I know how grand my destiny could be, but I am afraid. I am afraid because I often struggle to communicate my greatness in its entirety. I am afraid because next to nobody can see me for I am, and many if not all of those who do seem intent on tearing me down. I am afraid because my life will be built on the back of a coin toss. I am afraid because I may have made the wrong decision when I strayed from the path. I am afraid because I've been led to believe that in order to make it I must lose myself in arrogance. I am afraid because everyone is telling me that I don't know who I am and who I am is all I have. I am afraid because for now I am nothing. I am afraid because for now I am nothing. I am afraid because I don't know whether I truly possess the strength required to do what I must. I am afraid because I feel as though I'll inevitably disappoint those that I love the most. I am afraid because I hide in my own head and often get lost. I am afraid because I know that know matter how grand the display, as soon as the curtains close I am left alone; hounded by a relentless expectation of more. I am afraid because I am an artist.